As I stand here by her hospital bed staring at her face,

I knew there were things that she needed to tell me ,but she could'nt find the place.

Her heart was filled with more guilt than I could of ever known

Though she had the chance to tell me she just could'nt let it go,

She layed on her death bed for weeks at a time, I knew she would'nt be coming home

and that was weighing heavily on my mind.

We had a rocky relationship, though we tried throughout the years

to mend all the pain there were always alot of tears.

For every tear that I still shed makes my heart ache now that she is dead.

It's now been a few years since her passing and I think of her everyday

There were so many secrets that were not spoken and because of that now I pay.

Things that only now I am beginning to discover, finding out now that there is another.

I wish I could talk to her just to ask why though that cannot happen now, all I do is cry

Searching for answers will be like solving a puzzle,

but I know in my heart it's what I must do.

For if giving up was an option, I must see this through

Once she passed away I knew her soul was at rest

because the calm on her face said it all.

I held her hand for as long as I could though at times I just wanted to fall.

A feeling of emptiness surrounded my heart knowing at that second we were now apart

I know when my time comes I will see her than,

because she was my mom and she will always be my friend.

This poem was created from deep within my soul and it means the world to me so

whomever reads this I hope you get something out of this.

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